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"so you're going to miss your sister, huh?" my boss asked.
"yeah, but i'm definitely NOT going to miss living with her..."

so then, i asked my new roommate, "do you have a best friend?"
she said something about having close friends.
at that moment, i started crying.
she saw my tears, yet her pre-occupation with the TV told me that she couldn't care less.
i have to move out as soon as possible.

see, i have a best friend. i used to be roommates with my best friend. my best friend is now going to be at least 2500 miles away for the duration. i miss my best friend a lot. and at that moment, i actually felt it.
see, my old roommate is the type of person who would care what was wrong if she saw tears. any friend would, right? if i've ever let you see me cry, it's either because we were under a confidentiality agreement, or i considered you a friend...once.
see, realizations can be rough. realizing that a friendship is one-sided is dissappointing. realizing that someone who should care, actually doesn't hurts. but then again, realizing that you have to eat your words about what you will or will not miss about someone can be downright lyrical.

"on and on it seems to go, but..."